A first-hand account of the fallout from one drunken summer night in July 2005.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Long time no blog

Wow. It's been a month and a half since my last blog... I have been busy, though. I guess when I started my blog I had a lot on my plate. Ah well, things have settled down now (kinda) and maybe now I can focus more on this... We'll see.

Since I last posted, my house has come a long ways. It's all finished, and I love it, because it's mine. I don't hesitate to tell people that, either. Every chance I get to toss in that it's MY house, I do. Probably gets annoying, but, well, everyone has a purpose...

One fairly significant thing that has happened (that I should have seen coming a mile away, because it's typical me) is my relationship with Brad has changed dramatically. I hate that word. If you read (I think) my first entry, it explains about Brad, and what happened between us. Well, since then, we have hooked up a half-dozen times or so, and, such always happens with me, I fell in love. I think. It's hard to tell, because he's the first boy I fell in love with. I fell in love hard with a girl a few years ago, and she was a major heartbreaker. That took me a long time to get over, so when I realized I had fallen in love (or lust, I'm still not sure) with Brad, I got a little freaked out. Anyways, that's still something I'm dealing with. The hard part is, I'm pretty sure his girlfriend has figured out what's going on. Which isn't cool. She hasn't actually came right out and said it, but, yeah, she knows. She won't say anything to me, but she has said things to Brad, who relays them to me. Apparently, she refers to me as Brad's boyfriend, which kinda stings when it's coming from the closeted guy's girlfriend. And, considering that Brad and I really are very close, regardless of whats happened in recent months, she gets insanely jealous whenever he and I spend time together. She will call our cell phones constantly, last week she came into the bar where we were, and practically announced to everyone what was going on (i.e. "Are you coming home tonight, or is your boyfriend gonna bring you home in the morning AGAIN?") yeah that was a good time. Whatever, that's her issue I guess. Also, Brad is talking about moving across the country. That drives me nuts. Of course, he's my best friend, my buddy, has been for years, and now this, and I might not get to see him barely at all. That is if he decides to go, which my gut is telling me he will, but guts are wrong sometimes.

Basically, I have read every article Google could find for me, so I know a lot of the story, go and see Brokeback Mountain when it comes out. I've also read the story, and I'm convinced that E. Annie Proulx, way back in 1997, predicted what was gonna happen between Brad and I, and turned it into an award-winning story-cum-Oscar-dripping-movie. Besides names, locales, and career-choices, the story is dead-on. I am Jack, Brad is Ennis. See the movie. It looks fackin' awesome.

Also, someone please tell me how to highlight things that I wanna link to... The Help on here can be confusing sometimes...